The More I Seek You

The more I seek You

The more I find You

The more I find You

The more I love You

I want to sit at Your feet

Drink from the cup in Your hand

Lay back against You and Breathe

Hear Your heartbeat

This love is so deep

It's more than I can stand

I melt in Your peace

It's overwhelming

The More I Seek You by Kari Jobe

I love this song. It is such a beautiful picture of the intimacy we have with God. And the words resonate true with me.

"The more I seek You, the more I find you."

This statement is so accurate. Just begin to study His Word, seek His will, pray for His peace and He is there! For me, it is similar to when I see or hear a new word that I swear I have never seen or heard before. I will go look it up in the dictionary or more than likely, I will just Google it. The definition pops up and I feel smarter for knowing how to use my new found friend. In the next week, I will hear that word ten times. Before I noticed the word, I would swear I had NEVER heard it in my 30 PLUS years on this planet, but in a week, I will hear it ten times. Does that mean the word is new? Did it just come out? Is it suddenly a popular word? No. It was there all along. I am just aware of it so I recognize it when I hear it. My friends, the same is true for God's voice. When you seek it, you will hear it. And when you hear it, you will know what it means.

"The more I find You, the more I love You."

How can you not? The love that was poured out has no comparison. The only thing that comes even slightly close is falling in love. Finding that person who you love a little more each time you learn something new. Seeing their face and feeling that crazy flutter in your heart. I can not fathom what the flutter will be like when I see my Jesus with my own eyes. What will happen to me when I gaze into those eyes and I see those scarred hands and feet? I tear up just thinking about it. It feels like I have been separated from the love of my life and my heart just aches to fall into His arms.

"I want to sit at Your feet,"

This is me being the learner. Like when we were in school and sat at the teacher's feet while she read us a story. But it's better because it's not a second hand reader. It is the Almighty who has experienced and seen everything so the stories are from the ultimate eyewitness. And just read a little of His word to see that He is the Master storyteller. What will we learn?

"Drink from the cup in Your hand"

In a social gathering we each have our own cup. We write our names on them so they don't get mixed up. When I was a child, my mother's drink was my drink. I know it made her crazy because she would come back to drink it and it would be gone. Now, my drink is my children's drink and I see why it made her nuts. But the point is, with Jesus, there is one cup. I get to accept it from Jesus and drink from it. There is a familiarity there. It is family.

"Lay back against You and Breathe

Hear Your heartbeat"

This is the line that gets me. When I was little, I loved to curl up on my dad's lap. Today, I can curl into my husband's arms. It is safe. It is secure. It is a comfort when I am sad or stressed. It is pure love. But these arms... wow... these arms are infinitely bigger, infinitely stronger, infinitely warmer. I can't even describe it. I once wrapped a child in a warm blanket to try to illustrate the comfort we will feel when we get to do this. It's the only thing I can think of but it seems so pale in comparison. The world will melt away. The troubles will be gone. No pain, no fear, no sadness. Just the perfect rhythm of Jesus' heart. A beating heart to prove that He once lived, that He still lives, that He will always live.

"This love is so deep

It's more than I can stand

I melt in Your peace

It's overwhelming"

Amen

Rainbows

"I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. Whenever I bring clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life. Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." - Genesis 9: 13 - 16

Today is AJ's 20th birthday. Isn't it great to have a day where you know EXACTLY what you were doing at each hour of the day? It's easy when you know you spent most of it (14 hours to be exact) in a hospital waiting to meet your son. The rest of it was spent taking in every inch of him and learning how to be his mom. I was oh so young, but oh so determined. It is AJ's special day and it is my 20th anniversary in this job called motherhood. Thank You God for entrusting him to me. I am forever humbled by that blessing.

Today is one of those days that begin very early and promises to end very late. But it looks to be a good day. Here is why.

Let me set this up by telling you how much I hate getting up in the morning. It's not that I like to get up early, or late, I just plain detest the first-thing-in-the-morning feeling. I have never in my life, save maybe a trip to Disney, Christmas as a child or my wedding day, jumped out of bed, ready and excited to begin the day. I am just not wired that way. I have learned, however, that I am at my most productive when I am out of bed before 9 am. But 8:59 qualifies just fine for me.

Now you should understand the sarcasm when I tell you that I got up and drove Jeff to work this morning. He has to be to work by 7 am. We also had to go make a deposit at the bank, which is out at Disney. So, we left the house BEFORE 5:30 am.

Additionally, it was raining this morning. It began as a light sprinkle but varied between that and a steady downpour the whole way to work. I couldn't help but covet the people who were turning over in their beds, hearing the sound of rain on their roofs, and smiling as they drifted off to sleep again. That was how my morning would have started. Instead, I was holding a cup of coffee, trying to string a coherent sentence together whilst working up the strength to actually get the cup to my mouth. That really is no small task for this girl at 5:45.

As I was driving home an hour and a half later, I noticed a small streak in the sky. As I rounded the ramp to get on the turnpike, I realized it was the beginning of a rainbow. It steadily grew brighter and larger. I looked to the right a bit and saw the other half. The arch was obscured by clouds but you could see both legs. I was immediately struck by its beauty and reminded that God's promise is full and never obscured. What a positive thought to begin the day.

The rainbow grew even larger and more brilliant as I drove and I was completely focused on God's glorious presence right there in the car. Not only did I have no anxiety, I was in the complete absence of fear. Such amazing thoughts and beautiful images filled my head. I began to praise God right then and there. It is only by Him that I did not crash because I can tell you, I was not focused on the road. I know that because suddenly I turned off the turnpike onto the 408 and was headed back to Orlando. Yep, I completely turned in the wrong direction. You know what I did as I turned around? I laughed. I had such joy that not even extra tolls and a delay in getting back to my bed could bring me down.

When I returned to the turnpike, the rainbow was gone. I could no longer see it and it was raining again. Suddenly, I was so thankful that God's promise is not so fleeting. He is steadfast in His love and grace. And my heart was full. Praise God.

Finally, my scientific brain kicked in and I thought about how the clouds were covering the sun and that was why the rainbow was no longer visible. Which brought about another wonderful thought. How cool is it that it is the sun that brings the rainbow just like it is the Son that brings the promise? The promise of life eternal. The promise of freedom from pain, and fear, and suffering. Then the radio gave a scripture that fit so perfectly, it felt like my personal gift from God.

"Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith." Hebrews 12:2

Amen.

Have a day that is filled with His promise and His blessings.